complete update on everything

OK, i know its been a while, so im going to go right back to everything thats been going on....

Ive started seeing the school councelor, to deal with my anxiety and panic attacks that i have, were apparantly going to go wwaaaaaayyyyyyy back to when i was younger and sort everything out. Dad has seemed to change a little bit, but ive realized that he's the main cause of all my problems, so ive directing a bit of anger at him recently........ ive also realized that the family may be better off living apart, dad becomes everything we want him to be when he doesn't live with us..................

Sorted somethings out with J to, so its no where near as awkward as it was, but i know he's still hiding stuff from me, and has no intention of telling me, which is understandable, i'll just get someone else to pry it out of him.... Im not exactly sure where im heading now with boys, im one very confused girl....... i like J, but i dont want to ruin our friendship, but i cant help but want him, he's also not going to do anything incase he gets rejected, he's just gunna wait for me to start talking... K, even though i think he's absolutly gorgeous, n would like nothing more than to go out with him, he doesn't talk to me, he only talks to me on msn, and even then he only answers with one word.............. but i did wave to him the other day and he waved back, i just can't figure him out... i dont think i ever will... lol. And just to top it all off, there's a new guy on the scene... S, he may not look as hot as K, but he's really sweet, talks to me at school and texts me. We hung out at centro the other day to, which was really funny, he had me in histerics!!!!!
S and K hang out, which i could use to my advantage...... because i said hi to S when K was with him, and K didn't stop looking at me.. hahaha be jealous! And, when i was at centro with S, K's mate walked around with us for a little while, so he probably told K, and now K's talking to me heaps on msn, and joking around and calling me kid and everything........... so what do i do know, that K is paying attention to me????? I would go out with S if he asked me, or K, but i dont want to hurt J, but like Ayla said, sometimes you just can't help but hurt people, even if you dont mean it...........

Played netball yesterday, in some cow tripped me up n stood on my ankle, and ive possibly torn a ligament...... meh, i didn't even get i full quarter!!!! We kicked ass though!!!!!!!

OMG... my little sisters friend is staying the night, and im just about ready to kill her, she's driving me crazy, i swear im gunna go badger on her ass................. >=(

But otherwise not much else has been going on, mid year exams are starting, which is just fantastic............ im gunna fail the maths exam, i just know it............

Woke up early this morning, and went down to the river with dad, to check out the V8 super charged boats! OMFG there load and go freakin fast!!!! Then dad bought me a chocoalte bar n a caramel coffee, which was really nice!!!!!

Im also completly obssesed with Storm Hawks, there sooo funny!!!! *its got chicken legs!!!! Yes.... Chicken Legs* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOL

Well i guess thats it for now, i'll try and update more often..... if i remember!!!!

xoxoxoxoxox
RizZumS aka: da badger!!!
p.s. starting from tomorrow, its 21 days until my 16th birthday!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!

love drunk

Boys can be VERY annoying, fusterating, noobish, crazy, confusing and everything else, but heyy, we still love em dont we!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yes, yet again the situation between me n J is yet again........ silence
Its sort of like a like him, like him dont friendship, some days im like oh its J, n other days im like OMFG its J!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ayla's was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON much fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me, K, E1, E2, N, M, J, N, and C, played hide and seek at night in our PJ's, i went with J, n i barely, just barely controlled myself............ he's very.... tempting???? i dont no if thats the word im looking for, but its pretty close, i coul dhav gone it, but held myself back..... ahhhhhhhhh maybe i should just let myself go n do wat it wants to do.......
J wouldn't stay the night either.... chicken!!!!!!!!!! lol

anyways g2g heaps nomafied ones!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rizzums

Rizzums is FINALLY updating.... lol

well, da skool holidays have been and gone, and all i have are memories of the time in Queensland.... aaahhhh such wonderful memories of dat super hot dude lol.. damn he was fine!!!! OMG! i also went to Natural Arch, were my mum swum when she was pregnant with me.. its so beautiful....

Nothing else much 2 say except "Gimme my motha f****a 99c fish back!!!!!" my god dat was funny J!!!!

Ayla is gunna be happy with me coz i finally posted!!!! yay oh, n im going 2 her sleepova 2nite!! OMG CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!! =)p

Was talking 2 K last night, we were talking like we were friends or something!! sooooo kool!!

Lol i finally got the crash of the titans game ive been wanting for ages, dont u just love parents when they buy u stuff!!!!! lol

Oh! and i have offically cracked the shits with ayla Lara Croft Tomb Raider game..... never again will i feed its goldfish!!!!

LOL

Ahh well, all for now heaps dimsham ones!!!!!

xoxoxox RizZumS

don't no wat 2 call this....... lol

played my first game of B grade netball today!!!!! YAT ME!!!!!!!!!!!! XD Unfortunetly thou, we lost by 3 goals, but considering dat was our first game, i think we did pretty well!!!!!
Da Cardross jrs lost, and A grade lost and da cordy football club r gunna get der asses kicked so.... all round cardy aint gunna win anything!!!!!! lol
Played center to so i got quite a good run around da court........ it also shows how unfit i am... *groan.....* ahwell.
Mum, dad and me sis are out rite now, so i got da whole house 2 meself!!!!!! yay!!!!! i can dance in mai undies!!!! lol jokes jokes.. XD
OMG!!!!!!!!!! E birthday is coming up!!!! and i haven't even got her a present!!! AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! plus i have no idea wat 2 get her.....
Finally its da holidays!!!! bring on da relaxation!!!! NOT!!!!!!!! I have 2 look afta my sista and start packing coz were moving... AGAIN, but i guess going 2 queensland in 2 weeks time its totally the up side!!! I get 2 miss out on a week of skool!!!!!!!! YAY!!! wait.... NOOOOOOOOO!!!!! i wont get 2 c K.....n!!!!!!!! waA *tear*
Lol, i'll get ova it, he's a noob anyway... thinks im boring as if.....
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i JUST REMEMBER SOMETING!!!!!! i is having pizza for dinner!!!!!! BWUHAHAHAHAHA
lol
g2g!!!!
rizzums

ayla is annoyin.... lo jks

hehehehehe, i thought you'd like dat heading ayla....!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

i hav absolutly no ideawat to say, coz theres nothing 2 say.... i guess...
AAArrrrrrggghhhhhhh, K....n is driving me crazy!!!!!! lol gawd i hate guys sometimes... =)p
got 2 go, got nothing else 2 say basically
lol
Rizzums
P>S. AYLA IS A NOOOOOOOOOOOOOBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
I LOVERS YOU AYLA

friends..... wat would u do without them????? <3

Thank god for friends. I seriously have no idea where i would be without my friends, or what i would be like. I owe KP n Ayla a lot, if it wasn't fort hem and there support today, i don't think i would have coped........ I LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Typical boring day at school, K wasn't here today.... =( and he's not going out with I anymore!!!! BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i is feeling very eebil right now!!!!! mehehehehehehe)

E wasn't at school 2day!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO *sob sob* =(

i'm also obessed with Flo Riders song Right Round, but chipmunked!!!!! it souds freakin awesome!!!!!!!
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL NOOM
hehe gots 2 be goings!!!!!!
xoxoxoxox thanks ayla and KP for everthing 2day!!!!!! i loves you

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i was going 2 write something important today, but it's completly gone from my mind, coz i have 2 many things running through it............. sometimes i just wish the voices in my head would just go away.......
A lot has happened to me these last few days, a lot of things have come up n caused many.................. disruptions, i guess you could say, oh well, i'm used 2 it by now but this time it might be different.... either way, i will survive "CRASH" (lol dat song cracks me up) i'll get through this, ...... hopefully without 2 many tears...... im practically ready to give up on him, but then again i can't, but i was that close 2, i wish he would realize he can't keep doing this 2 me.....

huh................ anyways on a lighter tone

Went to Renmark 2day with my cousins, my f***ing god, it was soooo funny T (my cousin) stepped in human poo n got it all over his shoe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA it stank like crazy, sooo funny though, one of them 'had to be there' moments...... XD